Right, so I just need to vent.
I have anxiety problems and I have very high standards for myself. Tomorrow I’m going to a two-day CW reenactment. I haven’t finished the bodice of my dress (the first mockup failed and I lost motivation) so I’ll be in a borrowed dress that doesn’t flatter me at all. I’ll be staying the night with the president of our little civilian group. She’s a lovely woman and I have a great deal of respect for her and I like her, but my anxiety is twisting all the nice things into judge-y things. So now I’m kinda dreading this event.
Here’s my pledge to myself: I will ignore the bad and just focus on being there for the fun of it. No one is judging me. If they are, they are asses. Everyone starts somewhere.
Wish me luck.